About the author
I believe that most people want to be good and do good, but get sidetracked and overwhelmed by the petty realities of daily life on their karmic journey.
I believe that if we keep the perspective that this life is not the end, that I have lived many lives, and probably have not yet finished my journey to enlightenment, then really, there is no sacrifice** too great.
I know that I am on earth this time around to do something extraordinary and what I have attempted and achieved thus far is but a miniscule part of what still lies ahead.
To live in harmony with my surroundings, people, nature and the Creator’s will and laws, is my immediate goal every day.
I love myself for who I am and who I am becoming every day.
You may think of me as a ‘fire-wight’… We get so bogged down in our humanity sometimes that we forget that we are beings of unimaginable potential! Potential to teach, to create, to love, to inspire and to serve… Apathy is not in my vocabulary. Do everything with excellence, be the best you can be, striving ever to be even better, doing everything with all I am. That’s the kind of person I am, and as a result and because of the circumstances of my life, I am continually changing and aware of that change, like a flame… something you can’t pin down. Therefore, fire-wight… a creature or being of fire.
My Hebrew name is Deborah – in remembrance of that amazing female judge of Israel of old (Judges 4 & 5), a woman who led and taught the people and who secured a mighty victory as a prophetess of the Most High. She was a fiery woman (another way to translate “wife of Lappidoth”) as one had to be to stand at the head of that great nation, and if you read her story and her song, she was passionate about God. That warrior’s spirit and fervour is a part of my soul – has always been – and it is a spirit I embraced wholeheartedly.
Deborah literally means “bee” – a very apt description. I can be sweet and meek and gentle as the day is long, but I am also strong-willed and stubborn and independent. The bee produces honey for us, but it can also sting. I am not afraid to offend people and I most certainly do not care what others think of me, but a thoughtful gift/gesture or a touching movie can make me cry. That is the beautiful contradiction of my nature.
I love music and the arts and I love animals – in particular my 5 beautiful Siberian huskies. I love to read and to write. I have been called an angel, a wise old soul, an alien, a fruitcake, a nerd, an elf, a princess… I am not ordinary and I am very proud of that fact. Why, you ask, when the whole world just wants to blend in, not stand out, and live a happy, humdrum life? I try to answer that question in these articles – thoughts on my life, where I come from, things I’ve read and ideas that have informed my ideals, my hopes, my approach to daily life.
If you know me personally, but you often don’t understand me, perhaps you will find your answers here… and if you don’t know me, if you came upon this site by ‘chance’, I hope that you may find something here that you may need at this juncture in your life and that my story may inspire you to find the fire-wight that lives in you too…
** I love this quote from Beautiful Creatures (2013):
“I don’t want to preach today, instead I just wanna talk to you, about a word we don’t hear much anymore. Sacrifice. It’s not what I would call a modern word. People hear the word sacrifice, and they become afraid that something will be taken away from them or that they will have to give up something they couldn’t live without. Sacrifice, to them, means loss in a world telling us we could have it all. But I believe true sacrifice is a victory. That’s because it requires free will to give up something for someone you love, or something or someone you love more than yourself. I won’t lie to you. It’s a gamble. Sacrifice wont take away pain and loss, but it wins the battle against bitterness, the bitterness that dims the light on all of the true value in our lives.”